Do you ever feel like your world is crashing down on you? Every where you turn people you used to trust, love, rely on, are suddenly no longer there. Every where you turn you get criticized, because well you simply aren't good enough, or perfect, or whatever. I feel like every thing I am trying to accomplish in my life is simply being turned to dust and ashes. I'm so tired. Yet I can never sleep. I need a break from being me, from being sick. I cope ever so well on the outside, but sometimes the inside doesn't want to listen to the voice of reason. I'm emotionally tired. I think I've had more strain on me emotionally than physically. It can be hard to believe that I was fearfully and wonderfully made when my body doesn't work properly. This post is kind of a downer, but in other news my sister might be finally making her dream of owning a greenhouse business thing come true. Which is awesome. In fact she called me and was telling me how scared she was  because she sees herself as a failure and I told her how she shouldn't believe that because she too was fearfully and wonderfully made and how God had this plan for her, though it might not make sense now. I obviously needed that talk as much as she did.